No Boundary

No boundary was written by one of my favorite philosopher Ken Wilber, it is an amazing book to understand different levels of human consciousness. I made a concept map to capture the core ideas of chapter 7 8 9 in this book.

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Here is the spectrum of consciousness proposed by Wilber in this book. It is interesting to think about how we see ourselves and human beings from different levels, and what could be changed as we move from the top level to the bottom level (from narrower to wider spectrum, as shown in this figure)

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Wilber, K. (2001). No boundary: Eastern and Western approaches to personal growth. Shambhala Publications.

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Love at first touch

Advance manual storytelling 04: Love at first touch

Treya’s life is full of risk. When she was young, when girls were talking about what kinds of boys they found attractive, Treya got interested in a totally different topic: why we are here, what is the purpose of human’s life?

A bicycle trip took Treya to a 3-year spiritual living in Scotland. During that period, Treya read lots of books written by a leading theorist in transpersonal psychology, named Ken Wilber. She always remembers liking the picture on the back of one book, it showed an elegant looking, shaving-headed man with glasses – an intense, concentrated look, the background is a solid wall of books. She would never imagine how her life would lay out for her in the next few years.

Treya went back to Colorado after 3-year truth seeking journey in Scotland. In the summer of 1983, Treya went to the annual transpersonal psychology conference and heard that Ken was there. Treya saw Ken from a distance for a few times, it was very hard to miss a six-foot-four and bald slim guy, surrounded by fans.  Another time, Treya saw Ken sprawled by himself on a couch, looking lonely. Treya did not talk to ken in the conference. She didn’t think much for having a connection with Ken, actually, she thought she would never get married in her life. Because in Treya’s past dating experiences with men, the sweet ones weren’t brilliant and the brilliant ones were definitely not sweet. She always wants both.

Some weeks later, a friend called her and invited she to have a dinner with Ken. This first meeting is unusual. They two barely had a chance to say hello, when two of their common friends began to bring up some very deep problems in their relationship. Ken was asked to be therapist for the night. The next three hours were spent dealing with their issues. Treya could tell that this wasn’t exactly how Ken had wanted to spend the night. But he stayed present on working with the deep and difficult issues in their relationship.

During the therapy process, Treya didn’t get a chance to talk to Ken. most of the time, Treya tried to get used to his shaved head, which was very distracting to most of people. Treya loved the way he looked from the front, but the side view…well that would take some getting used to. At one point during the break, they all went into the kitchen for some tea. They just said hi to each other, without even had a formal conversation, Ken, surprisingly, put his arm around Treya. Treya felt a little uncomfortable since she hardly knew him, but magically, a strong power made Treya slowly put her arm around him. and something moved Treya closed her eyes. Something indescribable happened at that moment – A warmth, a kind of merging, a sense of fitting together, of blending, of being completely one. Treya did not know how long the hug lasted, but when she opened her eyes, her girl friend was looking straight at her with a mystical smile.

What had just happened? Treya asked herself. She felt that she belonged in some almost transcendental sense in Ken’s arms. It had nothing to do with how many words they two had shared. When Treya finally left at 4 am, Ken held her again before she got in her car. “I was surprised. I felt like he never wanted to let you go.” That was just how Treya felt. But she did not respond to Ken’s words. Just to make sure it is clear, they had not slept together. They had not even talked beyond five words, they had simply put their arms around each other. Treya got back home and lay in bed, she could still feel subtle energy currents running through her body. That is love at first touch.

 

After the first touch, Treya convinced herself not to put too much expectations on Ken. Treya and Ken didn’t see each other for a week. He went to LA and when he came back, they had our first real date. They never once talked about marriage, it seemed unnecessary to either of them. It seems to both of them, they were already married. And all that was required was to let people know about it. It was simply going to be. Two weeks of that first meeting, Ken asked Treya to marry him. Treya said “yes, and if you don’t ask me, I am gonna ask you”. They got married.

That evening they went for some quiet time alone to a little cabin in the forest. The cabin blends so naturally into its surroundings. They stayed alone in front of the fire place. Fire blazing against the cool night, the electricity in the house was not working. “Right there, in your right shoulder” Treya said, “can you see it?” “see what?” “Death, it’s right there, on your right shoulder. But I don’t know what it means.”

A few months later, right before they scheduled their honeymoon trip, Treya was diagnosed breast cancer. She would never know she only had five year life living with Ken. This couple spent the next five years fighting against Treya’s cancer. In the winter of 1988, Treya decided to die peacefully. At her last night, Ken hugged her and told her “If it is time to go, then it’s time to go. Don’t worry. I found you before, I promise I will find you again”.

“Punishment is not a punishment, death is not a failure, life is not a reward.”- Treya

Please refer to Grace and Grit: Spirituality and Healing in the Life and Death of Treya Killam Wilber, by Ken Wilber.

 

 

My grandpa’s Near death experience

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My grandpa was a very timid guy. When he was about 25 year old, right after he got married with my grandma, his father sent him to the army, to train him to become a stronger and better man. After he joined the Chinese red army, he was assigned to serve at Vietnam war. He served in the army for about one year, got involved with small and big warfare with American army. everything is going intense, many of his fellowmen died in the field. One day, his company of troop got involved fighting with American army in a highland occupation in a village. American army threw bombs one by one from the air, my grandpa hided himself in a deep ditch with three of his fellowmen. He didn’t know how many bombs were thrown from the above. He was too afraid to move himself. Suddenly, one bomb landed right in front of the ditch he stayed in. he saw blood coming out of his fellow soldiers’ heads, arms and legs. He cannot feel his own body and he cannot move himself at all. The air was filled with strong smell of rotting flesh. He thought he was going to die soon.

 

His mind is flying away from his body, flying higher and higher. His mind is watching him from the above. His body is down there surrounded by hundreds of his fellow dead soldiers. His mind seems to be functioning in a hyper-lucid fashion. He feels fully alive, everything happened to him in his 25-year-life come back to his mind in a reverse chronological order. A timid guy was sent to the red army by his dad; his beautiful daughter was born in a hot summer; he was dating a woman sitting under a big tree and chatting; he was dating another woman under the same big tree and chatting; he went to a high school and being shy back in the classroom, staying quiet all the time…

 

As the life occasions go back to his mind, his attention is drawn to a black hole; he found himself moving through this black hole-without a body but with a strong sense of motion, this blackness is gradually becoming black a tunnel. As he approaches the end of the tunnel, he becomes aware of a pinpoint of light. This light quickly grows bigger and brighter and becomes more effulgent. It is an extremely brilliant light-golden white-but it absolutely does not hurt his eyes at all. As he moves closer to the light, he feels a sense of pure love, penetrating to the very core of his being. He is in total immersion in this light. All time stops; this timid soldier feel he is home again in the light.

 

In the midst of the timeless love, my grandpa becomes aware of a kind of presence. It is not a person, but it is a being of some kind. the presence informs you that you must make a decision whether to remain in the black tunnel or to go back to his body surrounded by his dead fellow soldiers. He does not want to go back to the dead body, he wants to stay in the love, seeing his life occasions simultaneously with those sharp images, everything that has ever happened to him in his life. There is no sense of judgment of himself. As this patterned fabric of your life unravels before you, he grasps the essential meaning of his life and he feels this true self, who does not care about how other people see him, either a shy guy or a timid soldier.

 

Suddenly his body and mind come together, to the real world. The reality is he was still alive, surrounded by dead bodies. The American airforce flied away. At the end of the day, all soldier bodies were shipped to another area. My grandpa pretended as a dead soldier and stayed with the cluster of bodies overnight. In the next morning, he ran away as fast as he could from the deadly quiet village and got his way back home.

 

He realized this is the most profound thing that has ever happened to him. He feels he started to understand his life, life will never again be the same. He wished he could talk to somebody about it, but who could understand, it was hard for a shy guy to find words adequate to describe it. But, I, as his granddaughter who was born 30 years later, feel his sensation when he was dying two years ago. I wasn’t with him physically, but mentally I have a feeling of extreme peace, pure silence and tremendous well-being.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A dance I cannot say no to

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Anna is a 30 white girl with brown long curling hair and rock-hard abs, arms and legs which appear to go on forever. She glides across the floor and lifts a hand up to the pole. Walking slowly around the pole, Anna then brings both feet off the floor, straightens her legs, points her toes, and spins gracefully through the air, her brown long hair flowing behind her. Bringing both feet back to the floor, she rises slowly back to standing, her hips and chest out, both her fancy bikini, beautiful face, both her arms and legs sparkle under the spotlight.

Anna then invites us to try the same move on the pole. As the song blasts out, I hold the pole tightly, I lift my feet off the floor, and try to spin with the strength of my arms, if I have, my palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy, there are friction on my thighs already. I am so nervous but on the surface, I look calm and ready to rock the whole move. I jump down the pole, and I hold it again, jumping up, and squeeze my legs on the pole, try to spin my body, this is my sequence, but my thighs bruise, my knees slam into the floor causing even more bruise of my knees, and my ego.

As a second round came, Anna wiggle her hips, walking seductively around the pole putting her long brown hair on one side of her shoulder, touch through her hair and smoothly runs her hands down over her chest and down to inner thigh. And then give a sexy look to herself through the front mirror. Oh that second move, I guess, is not that hard for me, at least not that hard for my arms and thighs. She then invites us to combine the first spinning move with the second sexy move together, with our own creativity. She said whatever you feel comfortable with, go for it! But I am not that comfortable with the spinning move, for the seductive move part, I am okay with it. I tried the same move as Anna did, at the end of my move, I looked at myself through the mirror, I was not stripping at that moment, but I felt some stripping part from my inside. I not only realized I have never worked on some parts of my body, but also realized I have never brought out some part of my inner self.

That was my fist try of pole dancing in my life, I was desperate to learn how to do it after that try. When I talk to people I do pole dancing, there is always a kind of laughter, or a joke. But for me, Physically, pole dancing is a form of dance or fitness exercise. It demands upon your body in ways that you never imagine. People are doing things that considered as workout when you are doing them on the ground. But you are doing them up on the air, suspending your weight, holding yourself up there and spinning you body like you are on the ground. Your whole body is engaged, your legs, your arms, your core. After the first class, every tiny part of my body, even those parts I cannot name, those parts I don’t even know I have, ache. They are like ache forever.

Pole dancing of course, it is feminine. the female body, in that form, doing those specific positions, spinning in the air, wear very less clothing, because you cannot wear long pants and sleeves to get hold on the pole, sometimes high heels, you cannot say that it is not erotic. but think about it, a bellarine is doing the same thing as a pole dancer, they are moving their body, opening up their legs, spring and spin on their legs. there is even a pole involved, the difference is that the pole is horizontal. Whether you are trying it for fitness or you’re attracted to the sexy side of pole dancing, the beauty of it is that you can take from what you want.

Pole dancing could be a very empowering movement for me. We do not need to dance naked on the pole, but we, both males and females, can live naked in our passion, naked in our power, naked in our heart. This “naked” against to the “twisting and hiding” on the inside. It is against others’ judgmental thoughts or your self-criticism brought on by a society that curbs the enthusiasm, the truth, the value for life. I am concluding my talk with my friend cassie’s remark, when you girls or guys do pole dancing, you are gonna definitely attract more people. If so! Great! I have found a new motivation for pole dancing. But I am actually concluding it with Erin Hanson’s poetry to all of you: “there is freedom waiting for you, on the breezes of the sky, and you ask “what if I fall?” oh but my darling, what if you fly?“

AECT 2016

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LT students present at annual AECT convention

I and Jennifer Englund, LT PhD students, presented at the October 2016 Association for Educational Communications and Technology (AECT) International Convention in Las Vegas, Nevada. The annual event draws over 1,000 educators, graduate students, and industry professionals whose activities are directed toward improving instruction through technology.

I presented a research paper co-authored with Dr. Scharber, titled “Examining an Instructor’s Online Interaction and Participation in a Ning Online Discussion Forum”, in 2016 AECT International Convention in Las Vegas, NV. The interactive slides of this paper can be found at: http://rpubs.com/fanouyang/aect2016.

Jennifer, I, and two other AECT PhD students presented as panelists in a moderated panel session entitled “Debating an increase in ALT-AC positions in the university and their impact on AECT student lives.” The session sought to offer facts, myths, and personal experiences about alternative academic positions and engage participants in discussion about how graduate students are navigating the changing hiring and career landscape in higher education.

use Meerkat-ED to do social network analysis and discourse analysis

Meerkat-ED is a software designed by Dr. Reihaneh Rabbany 

Meerkat-ED can be used to analyze two kinds of networks: participants’ interaction network and the network of terms they have used in their interactions.
I applied a small portion of my data in this tool, here is the process:
  • transfer your data into .txt file, if you don’t use Moodle, please refer to samplefile.txt for format. The online course I am studying was not based on Moodle, so I manually transferred a very small portion of my data into the right format
  • open the txt file in Meerkat-ED, two networks (i.e., interaction network and term network) were automatically generated

in the interaction network, you can change time frame at the bottom to demonstrate network during different duration

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Figure 1. Student interaction network

in the term network, you can click student’s name at the right top window, to show terms this student used

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Figure 2. Term network

  • you can click analyze-content analysis-topic clustering to show topic communities.

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Like KBDex, Meerkat-ED is a useful tool to analyze online collaborative learning. One strength Meerkat-ED has is you can set different text analysis methods, and different types of words, e.g., noun or verb. One thing Meerkat-ED is different form KBDex is that, you cannot choose specific words in Meerkat-ED. In addition, you should also pay attention to data clean process before you import your data into Meerkat-ED.  You might need to make noun words consistent throughout your data file. For example, I should have changed all “communities” to “community”, or “questions” to “question”. This part can be tricky.
Another creative use of Meerkat-ED and KBDex is that you can use them to visually demonstrate content or discourse analysis results. For instance, if you have coded discussions based on some coding scheme, you have got codes for each analysis unit. Then you can use Meerkat-ED and KBDex to show the networks of codes (where links represent co-occurrence of codes in the same sentence), rather than the networks of words, phrases of the discussion content itself. This might be an interesting way to demonstrate content or discourse analysis result. Widely-used ways to demonstrate content or discourse analysis results are “code and count” table, pie/bar charts, or sequential/path analysis. The function of network of terms supported by Meerkat-ED can create new visualizations for researchers.
Overall, Meerkat-ED is a solid tool to do data mining in online collaborative learning.
If you are interested in applying this tool in your reserach, please refer to more info:
Rabbany, R., Takaffoli, M., & Zaïane, O. R. (2011). Analyzing participation of students in online courses using social network analysis techniques. In Proceedings of educational data mining.
Rabbany, R., Elatia, S., Takaffoli, M., & Zaïane, O. R. (2013). Collaborative learning of students in online discussion forums: A social network analysis perspective. In Educational data mining (pp. 441-466). Springer International Publishing

use interactive Shiny app to demonstrate your research analysis result

Shiny app is created by R studio. It can be used in creative ways to demonstrate your research results if you use R to analyze your data. Your shiny app includes server.R and ui.R. The R code that you used to run your data, can be embedded in server.R file. It may create plots, tables, network graphs, etc. You can design and program your user interface in different format, like checkbox, buttons, radio buttons, sliders, text input, etc.

Here is an example I played with on a recent study my advisor has worked on – a gender analysis of female scholars in six educational technology journals from 2004-2015.

  • used navbarPage to demonstrate two pages for including different info
  • used select box for users to select the journal
  • used tabPanel to demonstrate two different formats of barplots (created through ggplot2 in R)

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copyright of the data demonstrated in this shiny app belongs to the research team, please do not use the data without permit

 

Many fancy examples can be found here in shiny gallery and user showcase, where you might find some inspirations. Really, it is not that hard to learn, even you don’t have any programming background, and don’t know any programming languages.

In addition, shiny app can be embedded within R presentation, to make presentation more interactive.